Success: More Questions Than Answers
How do I think about what I do? How do I gauge my professional success?
It seems like everything I do disappears…good or bad. I teach a lesson. It sucks. And it’s gone.
I teach a lesson. It’s awesome. And it’s gone.
What is a successful teacher? One who has simply survived 5, 10 or 30 years? One who writes kick-ass lesson plans and turns them in on time, every time? One who has become a principal? One who executes appropriate interventions and is able to provide documentation of said interventions? One with a great deal of data?
What is the difference between success and compliance?
What is the difference between success and happiness?
Do success and happiness have to be constructed purely on one’s own terms, in one’s own head, while balanced with compliance?
Could it be that for some teachers happiness, success and compliance are all they same? Is this, perhaps, the kind of teacher America needs?
Will the pinnacle of my career be that one day I will ask the perfect higher order thinking question at just the right moment? Will I know when it happens so I can call my mom later? And can you promise me that there won’t be anybody standing behind my back suggesting how it could have been just a little bit better?
Seriously, could it get any better than that? The boss says, “Shit, Teachbad…that was some really kick-ass higher-order thinking questioning and I really liked how you did the vocabulary station workshop group stations…I wouldn’t change a thing.”
What is this job? Fuck if I know. Somewhere between a ditch digger and a brain surgeon. (Not to mention cop, social worker and parent.)
P.S. — Here is something funny that a comrade passed along.