Anxiety Too Soon
I feel the time run
Needles dropping from the tree
Every day faster
Six days, then back on the pile
Breaking rocks with my chain gang
I’m having my first real pangs of anxiety about going back to work. I’m trying to isolate the part that I dread most. It’s not the kids. After five years, I can handle kids. I don’t always like them, but I can handle them. For me, I think it’s the repetitive nature of the whole thing. I know exactly what’s going to happen when I get back…and for the rest of the year. Sure, there may be some new little bit of crap to do that the administration has cooked up over the break, but the safe money is always on that. There’s no suspense or tension. There’s no waiting to find out if you got the big account, or if the client liked the product. There are no important meetings to prepare for and feel nervous about. I don’t wonder if the next rock is going to be softer or harder than the last one.
Enjoy the rest of your break. Really.
Mr. Teachbad
I know exactly what you mean. The anxiety of zero pay off. We might just be paying for the sins of a past life.
I consider myself lucky. I teach PE… and because I also coach athletics, I have been able to sell the idea of “Athletic PE” to the adminstration where student-athletes take it as an elective alternative to PE. That gives me the required 5 periods. A 9:15am-3:30pm jobs. Fun stuff. Grant it, I do have to do some classroom time… I also teach Physical and Social Health in conjunction with the weight training class.
With that I am also able to personal train on the side from 5-8:45am before and 4-8pm after school. Sometimes getting some attractive female clients
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God my life is amazing.